Thinking.....

I sit back and ponder......SO many moms and dads take for granted being biological parents. It just seems "natural" to them and never run into issues with having children etc. Get pregnant have showers, showers and more showers, birth, homecoming without even thinking. Not to say that all do, but many really do not realize how very lucky they are. Many nights Tricia and I talked about why us? All the unfairness, seeing our friends being pregnant having multiple children (we love them all by the way!!!). It just was so much to handle while we searched for a solution to navigate around the "cancer" roadblock that so many countries and a few agencies (THANK GOD FOR HOLT INTL) throw up when adoptive parents want to JUST BE PARENTS! We should we be looked as different? It seemed at times that we would never find an agency or a country. Many countries treat cancer like the plague! "Oh no...we won't even look at you" or "10 years post" ...please! Well I look at Tricia and see what she has gone through. Hospital pictures during surgery, our 1 year anniversary ..... survivors walks with the Wellness Community,how hard she works to one day as Mimi says "Run that place" and just everyday since January 2003. It really all starts to make sense now. All the heartbreaks are coming full circle for us now. We are asked so many times "How come you don't adopt domestically?" Well God had a plan for Tricia and I. Obviously we have no control over WHEN we would be parents or WHERE, but He knew. Our chance to change the life of a child in another part of the world. 20,000 miles away. Someone who would more than likely sit in foster care or another facility for the remainder of their youth. Well that is reason enough for us. Go to the Holt forums look at the pictures of the children that are in state care, that right there is enough. I wish we could adopt them all. Just being parents.......something that no mom or dad should take for granted...EVER...