Jan. 9th, 2003 - life changed for me. Not only for me, but for my family and friends. Jan. 9th will be a day none of us will forget especially me. It is a day I always go back to when I think I'm having a bad day. Being diagnosed with cancer at the age of 25, newly married was a bit of a shock for me. I always knew in my life, ever since I could remember, something rare (good or bad) would happen to me. On that day, Jan. 9th- I told my brother in the a.m. I had cancer, oddly to say he knew it too. So many times in our life God touches us and speaks to us, but how often do we listen? For some reason in that hospital room, my brother and I shared the same sense. I knew from that point forward my life would never be the same. Thoughts flooded my head- how long will I live? What do I do now? What about all my family- my husband what will they do? I never thought about being a mommy not once during that day. Maybe if I did I would not have chosen to have a hysterectomy, maybe I would have saved my eggs. I look back at that day and I wonder why me? Why was I put in this position? I know everything in our lives happen for a reason- I asked Hank on Sunday I still do not know the reason behind the cancer and not being able to carry a child. He simply said "someday you will". I woke up this a.m. and I figured it out- God wanted Hank and I do adopt. He knew that there was a baby out there for us that might not have had a chance without us. I sit here and wait for my 4 year check up and I think how lucky I am to adopt- to be a mommy- to a special child that was put on this earth for us.
**** Note from HB IV- All went well today with Dr. Yim (truly and angel from above) who gave Tricia a clean bill of health- 4 years cancer free!!! While 9-Jan was a scary day for the Belz and Smith families we thank God that He has seen us through all of this and pointed us down the road He has, curved as it might be. Through thick and thin, more thin than thick :-) we cherish each day. To ALL of our friends and family that provide us with support and love, THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts. We can not wait until the day we walk down the concourse at Lambert for our homcoming with BabyBelz. It will be so very special. Trish, I am SO very proud of you. I love you :-) ..... CHEERS!